Day 19 - Nicknames I have, and why I have them.

I really don't have many nicknames. I have an aversion to nicknames. I like my actual name Britain very much, so I prefer to be called Britain.

The most common nickname I have is Brit. I think the reason why is rather obvious. I still prefer Britain over Brit, except for select people who I'm close to.

Occasionally while working in the lab I get called Mormon. The reason there is also pretty obvious, because I am Mormon, and my boss/co-worker is not.

My husband has used a variety of nicknames: Love, Babe etc...

That's about it. There really aren't too many other nicknames, especially not that people have used recently.

Also, on an unrelated note, two years ago today I gave birth two the cutest girl.

She's only gotten cuter since.

Then

And she is just as cute today.

Now

Happy Birthday Gabrielle. I love you so much.

Day 18 - Plans/dreams/goals I have

I plan on graduating from Utah State next spring.
I plan on enjoying the time left in college.
I plan on living the rest of my life happily married to the sweetest man in the world.

I dream of having the money to buy a new car and a home of my own.
I dream of traveling the world.
I dream of being skinny and fit again someday.

I have a goal to be on completely top of my homework, work and other responsibilities this next year (but I'm not planning on it.)
I have a goal to raise my daughter to be an upstanding person, a contributing member of society who kind, tolerant, generous, creative, hard worker, and who thinks for herself.
And for other short term goals see Day 8.

I plan on, I dream of with every fiber of my being, I have a goal to be a doctor someday.

Day 17 - Someone I would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I would want to switch lives with my dear husband, JP, for one day.

He is so different from me. Even when we experience the same event, he perceives it so differently from me. I want to understand how he sees the world, how his mind works. Another thing, is I just can't fathom the depth of his love for me, or what he sees in me. If I could switch lives with me for one day, maybe I could understand him better.

Day 16 - Another picture of me

I know I recently posted another picture under this waterfall, but I really like this photo. I know it's hard to actually see me (that's why I made the photo really big), and I don't look particularly great. But it shows me really happy, with a genuine smile, not just a posing for photos smile. 

Day 15 - First 10 songs that play when I put my iPod on shuffle

Because I am too lazy to grab my iPod, I'm just going to put iTunes on shuffle. It's the same songs anyway.

1. Vincent - Josh Groban

2. She Let Herself Go - George Strait (Sorry, I could only find a lyric video for that one.)

3. Masquerade - Phantom of the Opera

4. Better Things to Do - Terri Clark

5. Where's the Girl? - Scarlet Pimpernel, Terrence Mann. This is one of my favorite songs, and one of my favorite musicals. The video is incredibly quiet, sorry. It was the only one I could find that was actually Terrence Mann singing, so turn the sound up as high as you can.

6. Say Anything - Good Charlotte (Another lyric video.)

7. I'm Just Talkin' About Tonight - Toby Keith

8. Mine - Taylor Swift

9. Strangers - Martina McBride

10. The Gods Love Nubia - Aida, Heather Headley, Schele Williams and Ensemble

I finished Day 15! I am halfway done.

Day 14 - A picture of my family and I

So we don't have a lot of family photos. Usually either JP or I have the camera, it's rare that we are both in the picture. Here is the first photo taken of our family taken while in it's current state - three people - the day Gabrielle was born. I promise my husband looks less creepy with hair.

And a much more recent picture of our family from our trip to Canada. It was hard to find one where we are all looking at the camera. See he is much less creepy with hair. 

And one more picture from Canada because I love it. I got to cross an item off of my bucket list: kiss under a waterfall. It was awesome! (The kiss and being under the waterfall.)

I just want to add at the end I love my family so much! Those two mean the world to me.

Day 13 - A letter to someone who hurt me recently

Dear person(s)

I don't know how to write this or even wear to start. You don't even realize you hurt me. I was so angry and sad, and you dismissed me. You don't care what I think or feel. I will always be wrong in your eyes. I wish you would get to know me better, despite how long we've known each other you haven't taken the time and effort to really try and figure out who I am. I am not as simple to figure out as you think. There are many layers and different aspects to me; I am far more complex than you see me. Don't just take one aspect of me and think that's all there is to me. Don't try and force me into who you think I should be. I am figuring out who I am. While I am not at the end of the journey, I'm still imperfect and stumbling, but I am happy with the path I am on, and who I am becoming. Someday I hope you'll realize the level of resentment I have for you. Someday I hope you'll see my side and how you so carelessly dismissed me, my feeling, my thoughts, and my point of view. I hope you'll become a more caring and better person, someday. But right now, I am working on cutting you out of my life, reducing your hurtful influence. When I am around you, I am easily depressed, my stress level is through the roof, and I feel like I have to suppress who I am. That's why I've decided I'm better off with minimal contact with you. I'll enjoy the good moment with you, but those times will be brief and infrequent. Good-bye.

Sincerely,

Me

PS I hated writing this post.